3 hours!

Just look at that bus. Ohmyholymotherofgaga you have no idea how excited i am for this. It's going to be LIVE. Oh so excited this foundation is going to be like the best thing ever. It's going to inspire and help so many people i mean "BTW Empowering Youth . Inspiring Bravery" just says it all really. + i know you probably think i'm little bit biased because i absolutely adore Gaga but even with that put to one side this foundation is going to be life changing and really help young people especially monsters. 

I want to be an ambassador for this foundation so badly you have no idea like as much as i want to meet Lady Gaga i want to be a part of this foundation it would be so great to be able to help and inspire people to brave and spread the message that it's okay to be who ever the hell you want to be if that makes sense. Oh and i can't actually wait to see what Gaga is going to wear i bet she is going to look so  damn beautiful like she always does.

PawsUp!

Amen Fashion † 

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Gaga :(

Another really, really bad night i am so annoyed at myself. I cut again :| i am really ashamed of myself i didn't want to cut again the scars were just beginning to fade. I need to speak to Jen (my therapist) but she's away for like another week + it's my birthday on Sunday grrr this was all supposed to have gone away by then i can't believe i've let myself get this bad . Why am i such an idiot? I can't believe i let what my parents say upset or annoy me anymore because it's really not worth it. Gosh Gaga why can't i just come + live with you + you be my life coach that would be the best thing. Listening to some clips from interviews "You just remember that you're a god damn superstar and you were born this way" makes me cry everytime i am really trying mother monster i really am. I just don't feel like a superstar right now. I just want to meet you so bad Gaga, you really do mean everything to me no matter how obsessive or cheesy that sounds but you have no idea. You are so amazing how you've managed to forget your insecurities well i know you don't feel like a queen all of the time but you are my queen. "So when you leave here tonight know that at least one person believes in you" actually crying right now because i wish you were here :P 

I love you Gaga so so much! 

PawsUp!

Amen Fashion † 

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Dear Lady Gaga Take One.

The first of my video messages to Gaga. Well i know how attractive that image is right there but i just wanted to get a video posted to say a big, big thankyou because seriously i could have got through last night without you Gaga. ♥

Paws Up!

Amen Fashion † 

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no college for me today.

Dear Lady Gaga,

Okay so i read back last nights post god i sound pathetic but that was just how i was feeling last night. I didn't really sleep last night and after what happened last night i'm waaaaaay to worn out for college which sucks because i really don't want to get anymore behind. + i have weighed myself but i don't trust the bathroom scales anymore + i don't have therapy for like another three weeks so i won't know what i weigh  which is actually going to drive me crazy. Which is going to cause so many arguments with my parents because they want to sit down with me tonight + they are literally going to force me to eat all week, which is great i'm going to feel like crap for my birthday next weekend. I think i'm just going to try + starve until my birthday so i can actually enjoy it, i just need to get a little bit of weight off to feel better. But i wish it would go away, i hate what i'm doing to my family i really do, my mum lay with me last night + told me she was really worried i felt so bad. So now i'm just going to pretend everything is okay it'll make them feel better no matter how crap i feel i'm not going to let it show, that's what i have this blog for to vent out my frustration. + I have you Mother Monster :) 

Paws Up!

Amen Fashion † 

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my youtube channel

On my quest to meet you Gaga, i have now decided i am going to upload a video like everyday or every other day + send you think link along with my blog link. Just in the hope that you might notice me. Iknow to some people this might seem crazy + weird but if you read my pervious post you would find that i am actually going out of my mind + lady gaga is like the only thing that can fix me at the moment. So please Gaga if you see this please, please, please respond. I love you so much mother monster! 

www.youtube.com/user/beccakyliejo

Paws Up!

Amen Fashion † 

♥

helpmemothermonster

Dear Lady Gaga,

Okay right now has to be one of the darkest moments i've ever had. I feel so horrible it's untrue. I actually don't know what to do. I just want to stop feeling :( My parents hate me my Dad threw a chair across my room and told me that i'm going to tear the family apart everybody is stressing at me, i feel fat + disgusting. All i want to do right now is purge, cut and crawl up in a ball + disappear i swear the only thing making it better is your Born This Way album. What do it do mother monster? 

Help! 

From what i have read this is a picture of ladygaga today! aw she looks so amazingly cute in this photo i just had to post it.

Paws Up 

Amen Fashion † 

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i freaking love littlemonsters.com

OMG LITTLEMONSTERS.COM IS SO DAMN AMAZING. I'm actually in love it's like Gaga heaven it's so nice to speak to so many amazing little monsters + not feel like a freak. 

MonsterLove + Paws Up!

Amen Fashion † 

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